crawlin down the avenue

ADELE just reminded me it's been a month since I last saw him.

I'll be honest, I'm not totally healed, I'm not totally over it, and I'm not sure how it will be seeing him again. My stomach still bottoms out every time I see a facebook update about him, and I realize that I still really care about him. I'm not sure if caring about him is holding me back, though. It shouldn't in theory, but is it?

I have risen above, though. I have come out of it stronger, ready for the next chapter. It was painful, and I don't know why it happened, but I am SO ready for this next semester. I'm ready to work, I'm ready to practice, and I'm ready to let myself BE HAPPY!!

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I need to get away
To feel again
Try to understand why
Don't get so close
To change my mind
Please wipe that look
Out of your eyes
It's bribing me
To doubt myself
Simply, it's tiring

But sometimes it still hits me, and I wonder if it hits him too...