Music to My Ears

I see myself getting better. I can actually tell that I have been improving, and it is so exciting.

I've been playing cello for AAT's Guys and Dolls with an orchestra that I would expect to be really tight. I guess the world is telling me not expect things. For some reason the orchestra doesn't work together. Even though there are professional players, it is both out of tune and not together. I'm frustrated because I can't do anything about it; I've tried making us tune more and I've asked Eleanor for more rehearsals. All I can really do is play my part well. But when I know my part, I expect everyone else to as well. The most important part of this, though, is to produce my best work no matter what. And that's where the excitement comes from--even though I'm frustrated with the orchestra as a whole, I think I'm playing well.

On another note, I'm making a schedule for next week. I'll give it a week and see how it works:

7:00- Wake up, shower, eat food.
8:00- Practice
8:50- Break
9:00- Practice
9:50- Break
11:00- Practice
12:00- Lunch
1:00- Optional Practice/SC Pops stuff
2:00- Free
3:00- NL work/Free
9:30- Optional Practice

My goal for this week: to slow down, not freak out, and be present in every action.

Crossing Over

Plans for this semester (in no particular order):

Lessons with Irene Sharp or Stephen Harrison.
Trip to Europe with mom.
Being a (board) member of the Santa Cruz Pops Orchestra.
Job at New Leaf.
Slowing down.
Continuing Aikido and running.
Figure out summer jobs/camps.
Create and maintain lasting friendships.
Sing in a choir and play in an orchestra.
Get my drivers license and learn to drive stick-shift.
Write letters.

But I really want to breathe and find my own rhythm. I want to find what makes me happy and do it as much as possible. I want to be spontaneous, joyous, and approach every task with open eyes.

Another Beginning

Here's another blog and another try. But this time it's going to be different. I'm not forcing myself to do or be anything, I'm just giving myself a space.

I'm excited and scared for this next semester--I'm going to get space to just be me. I think it will end up being a detox from high school, but we'll see how it turns out come December.

So here we go, once again with feeling!!