Order

Ok, from now on I am going to use this to catalog all the challenges I deal with. Situations that I look back on and wish that I had dealt with them differently. I'm going to try to make sense out of the times in my life that are crazy or insane or unpleasant or terrible or just difficult. To find some kind of order in what would otherwise seem like chaos.

So, here I go!

This Semester: Retrospective I

I never thought I would be writing a "what I learned" response outside of school, but here I am.

In the last semester I learned how to not base my personality off of a routine or schedule.

looking

Beauty comes in the most unexpected places.
It's always in the dark if you know how to look.

Regroup

It's time for me to focus my life again. So I'll break it down and make it really easy for me to understand:

• Stephen wasn't at the lesson. That is NO reason to get derailed from my practice schedule. I don't need someone to inspire me, I'm inspired all on my own. I just need to...er...be inspired.
  
• The TV is on when I come in the house. I have NO reason to just sit down with the computer and stay there for 5 hours. What the hell am I thinking? Regardless, it's time for sloth to go away, and it's time for me to take advantage of the time I have at my fingertips.
  
• I'm not always consistent. That's NO reason I can't create beauty and peace where I go. That's NO reason I can't keep trying.
• I wake up too late or sleep through my alarm. That's NO reason I should shut myself down and close off. I can keep going and keep trying. Always.
  

I'm not going to walk forward, I'm going to run.
It's gonna be great.

The Song of Remembrance

I haven't forgotten to write, it just hasn't happened yet. It will soon.
I've been busy, but I can always pick up the pieces and

continue where I left off.

Chapters

Tomorrow I hop on a plane, and roughly 10 hours later land in EUROPE.

Whoa.

Clarity

Life is a confusing, twisting mess of pain and happiness and sadness and anger and triumph and fear and a million other emotions pulling you in just as many directions. Occasionally, though, it all lifts up and you see everything clearly--where in one moment you realize that it's all going to be OK.


I'm happy
and growing